BRIGHT YOUNG THING.

dear tumblr

i will miss you. that is all.

Bold all the things you’ve done in 2009.

luisamarie:

vikstuuh:

jaenamaee:

1. 1. Did something you said you would never do.
   2. Paid for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
   3. Lied about where you were.
   4. Discovered a new musician.
   5. Made something for a friend.
   6. Got a new phone.
   7. Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.
   8. Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
   9. Made fun of someone.
   10. Created a tumblr.
   11. Flew on a plane for the first time.
   12. Spoke in front of 15 people or more.
   13. Met someone in real life that you originally met online.
   14. Done something illegal.
   15. Did your siblings chores for money.
   16. Stayed up all night thinking about the worst thing that could possibly happen to later find out that you worried for nothing.
   17. Hurt somebody you didn’t mean to hurt.
   18. Hugged your mom or dad.
   19. Baked a cake.
   20. Made a new friend.
   21. Lost an old friend.
   22. Changed your views on society.
   23. Laughed at something that wasn’t funny.
   24. Got upset over something that wasn’t a big deal.
   25. Had a horrible birthday.
   26. Got a facebook.
   27. Deleted your myspace.
   28. Cried because you missed old times.
   29. Cleaned your room.
   30. Have a new found appreciation for someone you never expected to.
   31. Told someone you love them.
   32. Told someone you hate them.
   33. Screwed something up but didn’t mean to.
   34. Received a gift.
   35. Gave a gift.
   36. Read a book that wasn’t for school.
   37. Ate a lollipop.
   38. Threw away something by accident.
   39. Ran a mile.
   40. Switched schools.
   41. Aced a test.
   42. Wished you were in the past.
   43. Got scared about the future.
   44. Got yelled at by your parents.
   45. Lost a family member.
   46. Saw an old friend.
   47. Went to church/synagogue.
   48. Hugged a stuffed animal.
   49. Said you’re going to make next year better.

Mama.

I promise I’m going to love myself before I go off trying to love someone else. I promise not to cry over a guy for until I leave. I know I’m young and I need to have fun being free, and that only when I’m absolutely sick of being free is when I need to settle.

That is all.

Big sigh.

Song of the Sparrow

there is a woman getting ready for a night out with her husband… she stands in front of a mirror. puts red lipstick on. straightens out her dress. arranges her hair just how he likes it. she shows some skin. just for him to notice.
he comes in from work… just ready to explode. from guilt. he is angry when he sees her. all because the anger is the easiest thing for a man to feel. he wonders what the hell she is all dressed up for, since he doesn’t even think she is beautiful anymore. tells her to take off that awful lipstick.. take down that hair. and then he tells her…

that he couldn’t help himself.
that it is what it is.
so simple.
he has fallen in love with someone else.
shrugging his shoulders.
shrugging off the blame.

and she…
looks herself over.
she knows that after all these years.
after her body carrying his child.
after she has molded into only his wife… she knows she is ruined. no other man will love her. she has already been too worn.

and he wants to wash his hands of them. or her. for it all to disappear. so that he can move on. all spotless and new. he resents her.

she wants to be numb so she doesn’t have to feel the pain. or the loneliness. or the reality of being done. of being old and unloved.

“take it all away.
so i don’t feel it anymore”

now.. it is beyond repair.
everything they are… now, just snapshots. like in a memory book.

she looks to him to make her feel okay.

and he just wants her to be okay.
so that he can walk away
without feeling guilty.

-fayesweeper.

i always thought this would be just a story i’ve heard and not a memory.

joke lang.

So if the googoo dolls and lady gaga did a collabo, it’d be called

Googoo gaga.

hAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAaahah.aHAHA.

hyperdictionary.com

Dreaming of grocery or convenience store, suggests that you are emotionally and mentally strained. Alternatively, you may be brainstorming for new ideas or looking for the various choices out there for you.

Seeing a sewer in your dream means putrid conditions and old relationships. It suggests that something needs to be cleaned up or immediately changed.

Dreaming that you are Seeing or eating dinner alone indicates that you will need to do some serious thinking about your goals and direction in life. Alternatively, it may represent independence or lack of social skills. Dreaming that you are Seeing or eating dinner with others means your acceptance or others, your interpersonal relationships, and how you behave in your social life. It is a time to reflect and share past experiences. It also suggests that you see everyone as an equal.

Seeing your friends in your dream means aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to integrate these rejected part of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.

Dreaming of Christmas, symbolizes family togetherness, reunions, and celebration. It is also representative of new beginnings and fresh starts. Consider also your own associations with this holiday.

Dreams of flirting and affairs can reflect needs for attention that are not being met at home.

i had the craziest series of dreams last night..